Day 3

I talked to my Mom yesterday and asked her about the driving. She said that she was going to keep driving until she got something in the mail. Hmmm, I don't think that's what the doctor meant. We went back and forth a bit and then I let it go. It's so hard to know what to do in these cases. I don't want to alienate her, but she needs to be safe and I don't want her to hurt anyone.

She is really worried about my sister. She, my sister, is having a really hard time right now. Her husband is just back at work after 7 months off, it's a long scary story but the stress of that is really taking it's toll. We've sort of given my sister a slightly revised version of what is actually going on with my Mom. I told her the truth, more or less, the only change I made was that I said that they are still doing tests to find out what is going on with my Mom. My sister kept saying how relieved she was and that if anything was going on with my Mom it would devastate her. I just don't have it in me right now to break my sister's heart. But I'm also scared that she is going to be hurt that we kept this from her. I get that this is a journey, but I just don't want to take it!

10:30am: The doctor just called. She wanted to talk about my Mom taking the "Drive Able" test. It gives people with Alzheimer's a chance to win  back their drivers licenses for a while before they get too far gone. Did I just say "too far gone"? Damn I hate this! I told her what was going on, she was very sympathetic and gave me a bunch of strategies to deal with my Mom. I bit the bullet and called my Mom. She didn't answer and her mailbox is full! Is this what's is going to be like? If this is only Day 3, what's Day 47, or Day 122 going to be like? I just want to crawl into bed and pull the covers over my head!